I tried to escape you but the orchestra plays on...

I don't really have much to say today.
Nothing has really changed.
Same shit, different day.
I need out of this town so bad.
I need away from these people.
These repetitive places and phrases and actions.
Definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting a different result, then I'm as fucking crazy as they get.
fml.

you live illusion and I'm real...

I saw him today
yes, I'm pathetic.
That's besides the point.
Work was pretty much lametastic.
I've been with this company for over a year, and worked in the same industry for at least four, and this woman felt the need to tell me how to do my job.
We had to pretty much set up the store.
This is what I have done every Monday morning for a year.
That is my main day to work.
Yet, she felt the need to talk down to me like I had no clue what I'm doing.
Not okay.
I was expecting to have a lame day but it turned out pretty fantastic once I left work.
I don't know.
I'm super happy at the moment.
I need to go to bed though.
I have to be back at work bright and early.
(Keep in mind I've been unemployed for almost three months, so the time they're asking me to come in is the time I'm used to going to bed.)
So I'm going to go get focused and sleep.

Can we take a ride? get out of this place while we still have time...

Back to work I go.
Just wish I had something to show for these few months I've had to myself.
I've tried to improve on things.
I guess I just suck at life.
by the way, I'm not as emo as I sound.
I really have somewhat of a good life.
Just sometimes things get to me, well, this one thing anyways.
Other than that I'm pretty happy.
There's just a few things about myself that I need to reflect on and get figured out.
I guess I'll just have to keep trying.
I need to know why I can't let this go.

I'd rather waste my time pretending, then have to forget you for one whole minute.

No one sees what I see in you.
I love everything about you.
I just want you to be happy.
I'm tired of all the blah moods your in.
this sucks.
I care a lot more than she ever could.
You know that.
I don't know why you won't give me a chance.
I would take it personally, but I know deep down that it's not.
I guess I'll just keep living like this.
Honestly I can't have feelings for anyone else.
I've tried.
So I'll just keep wasting my time I suppose.
Maybe eventually you'll see...
I just hope it's not too late.

starting out right...

I'm amy.
I'm not really sure why i'm here or why i'm blogging about it. Maybe someone will find it interesting at the least.
I have a lot of pent up emotions.
I trust no one.
I have a few obsessions usually consisting of coffee, johnny depp, music, hilary duff, and muppets.
I love my friends too much for my own good, they hurt me a lot.
I love this one stupid kid way too much for my own good too.
I basically think I need a way to get my thoughts out there and I hope to get some kind of feed back from people that aren't in on everything that goes on in my life.
I'll gladly help other people as well.
I really just want to meet new people.
I have a heart that's too big for my own good, but I'm also bluntly honest and if you ever need a completely honest, unbiased opinion or advice, I will gladly give it.
I may not have perfect grammar or spelling, but I'm real, and that's all I can offer right now.
Thanks for reading and I hope you find this helpful, or at the very least, interesting.